kadenz

2006-10-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

my my... it's been a long while since i blogged... the last time i was here i just finised a tour of phuket and had returned to the reality of a mad mad world of work, school and church...

now i am again going away... this time to escape the haze... now i think the psi is around 100 and i have been having this cough for the longest time... hopefully the air in perth is much much better... am in need of this trip so badly to get away from it all...

so i booked a flight there on impulse and here i am... in the DBS Asia Treasures lounge in Terminal 2, enjoying a nice supper and drinking a nice Coke Light as i write this in the exclusive lounge. it was recently opened by our bank for our super rich customers... you have to have at least 3 million to be a member... not that i am one but being a nice staff member has its priviledge... the inside of the lounge is really kewl... soooo much better than the Krisflyer Raffles Class lounge... but the chairs can definitely improve in the comfort level... at least the ones next door in the KF lounge is cushioned... the ones here are not exactly soft...

i took a self pic on one of the 4 iMacs that we have in the lounge... here it is showing me alone in the lounge close to midnight having the nice staff pampering me like a king...

sigh... the picture could not be uploaded...

but anyway... i am signing off now... going to do a spot of shopping in the nice shops below and then make my very very slow walk to the second last gate to board my flight...

next message will be hopefully from perth...

2006-08-05T01:51:00.000+08:00

i had a realy interesting day off from work this 4th of august... heh... not that i was lazy but i really wanted a break from the office and this is quite an opportune time in terms of scheduling... i got up late after a night of karaokeing with some really cool people... celebrities (current and iminent ones) and their manager and lawyer... i think singing is really not one of my gifts...

in any case i woke up thinking... oh what the devil am i going to do this free day??? i wrestled with 3 options... i wanted to do something to get myself bathed in the harmful rays of the sun so it came down to these options:
a) to visit the Tree Top Walk at McRitchie Reservoir...
b) to visit Pulau Ubin...
or c) to visit The Retreat at Changi Village Hotel, a spa (which of course is an indoor activity but anyway...)
so i was surfing the net... looking out for weather reports and cost of spa treatments and in the end... i fell asleep again on my much missed bed and before i knew it... i was awake and watching season 2 episodes of star trek the next generation that i rented from gramaphone cd shop...

well... then 4pm came and that's it... i had to do something outdoors or my day off work will be wasted... eventually, i packed my beach towel and grabbed the latest asia spa magazine (yes... i am bitten by the spa bug...) and the latest michael crichton book which i bought for my phuket trip and never got to read past he first 5% together with my iPod and headed for... gasp... Changi Beach... i felt the intense urge to go plane watching and being the aviation whore that i am... i began wondering why i had not done this any sooner...

so i spent the late afternoon, a good 2.5 hours at least strolling along the changi beach promenade and watched the planes land at changi, strange sea vessels plying the east part of the straits of johore, fast crafts shuttling army boys to and from tekong, a really really sweet middle aged man who brought his aged and immobile mother for a whiff of the sea air and some vitamin D from the sun (this really touched me as i realised that i should have done this for my own grandmother when i had the chance when she was alive... kicking myself hard for not having done this), a mother and her daughter and her daughter playing by the grass area, strange looking foreign men skiving from their day's work, an odd japanese pair of men who are clearly tourists and clearly loved their planes...

all in all i had a great afternoon of mua time... nothing to worry about... just fantasising about the places that were featured in the spa mag that i finished reading... fantasising about the places that i could visit on the planes that landed... and just thinking about oh... nothing that stresses me out like school or work... forgetting about the fact of being alone and all...

right now as i recall the planes that i saw... i remember these airlines: Singapore Airlines, Malaysia Airlines, Air France, DHL, Fed Ex, Garuda, Jet Star, Tiger Airways, Emirates, Japan Airlines, FinnAir, a private jet, Philipine Airlines, Silkair, Qantas, British Airways, Valuair... wondering who might be on them... where did they depart from... when can i fly again... it was extremely therapeutic and relaxing to say the least... i am definitely going to do it again soon... maybe the next time earlier in the day with more sun rays for that much desired tan... :P

and yes... i did end off the day with the lake house (a hollywood remake of the korean romantic comedy)... which was a really good movie and it got me thinking really hard... why did i not pursue my childhood ambition of becoming an architect??? i remembered clearly that i had wanted to be one really bad when i was growing up before the glamour of becoming a conductor got to me and made me forget that i had always wanted to design buildings... this is one of the very very few tinges of regret i have ever felt in my entire life... seeing the Keanu Reeves / brother / father characters all playing successful architects made me truly reflect on who i was and what i had wanted to be and most importantly... what i am going to do with the rest of my life...

lots of thoughts squeezed into a friday... and none of which had to do with school or work... most satisfying... and did i mention that i had 2 portions of dinner today??? :P

WTF!!!

2006-08-01T00:13:00.000+08:00

i've been out of action for a week... not because i was too busy... oh that also but more because there's just too many things going on in my mind and i do not know what to pen down... almost every aspect and focus in my life is put into high warp this past week and there's just too much intermix going on up there... church, school, personal life, family, work... not sure whether to sigh... to moan... to grumble... or to simply assign a word to describe how it feels... i am not angst or frustrated or anything... i'm just feeling a simple plain vanilla "ergh!"... not with three consecutive exclamation marks but just one to express a tinge of disillusionment and a dash of WTF is going on with the world and some of its inhabitants??? bleah... some reassurances please... perhaps from someone divine???

2006-07-23T01:27:00.000+08:00

this evening was spent again on sentosa... originally we throttled to the island to hear an all girl jazz group sing contemporary jazz... as advertised... which was quite a disappointment cause in the end, they did not exactly sing any contemporary jazz... not even along the broad lines late 20th century with the likes of the very safe coltrane, miles davis, pizzarelli... or even a marsalis or harry connick jr... let alone the modern improvs of neo jazz - chill out fashion... everythings fixed and rehearsed... safety first... no spontaneity... and definitely no improvs... to be fair, we only heard them sing one or two RnBish songs at the beginning and another tunes at the end... one of them called spain bears some semblecce to tango as they claimed... which strictly speaking is hardly a style of jazz... an aside: jamie cullum by the way is NOT JAZZ... jazz influenced yes... pop infused yes... but definitely not classified as jazz... the fundamentalists will tell you that...

ultimately the only song that we heard that they rendered in a true jazz style was this chinese delight called ye3 lai2 xiang1 or literally "night come scented" translated, sung swung... quite shanghai in the thirties combined with the electric nuances of the new millenium with the synthesizer accompaniment... so if one expects to hear acid, fusion or free jazz will be disappointed... they are just a good or average jane all girl band... period... that happens to be individually talented but when put together, not quite there yet... but they are trying hard and i think they do entertain and kudos for putting up live sets to a crowd... but to pay them to hear them live again at UCC for their concert in august... hmmmm... hardly a move i'll make... i kinda like the bassist though... few females i see bass that well or even play it at all for that matter... so it is quite refreshing... makes me want to really pick it up and learn it...

KM8 on tanjong beach is a nice chillout place... despite the fact that it's a little dark cause it is only ambiently lit save for the compulsory flame holder in the middle... but the food's reasonable and not to overly priced... music's fine for chill out... makes you wanna sleep when one has concluded dinner... but go only with a vehicle and park there cause it is at the edge of tanjong beach which is at one corner of the south sentosa shoreline that is connected via the beach road... a pity i did not get to see tanjong beach in the day for i've heard how lovely that little bay is in bright sunshine... i must return soon to catch the sun there... and to ascertain that it is indeed that lovely...

2006-07-21T01:00:00.000+08:00

Nice shot of the waves crashing onto Mai Khao... you can almost hear it if you stare at it long enough...

Beautiful sun setting over the horizon on Mai Khao Beach, Phuket

Poor jelly fish stuck on Mai Khao Beach...

Beautiful landscaped pool at the Marriott Resort

sammie rowed the boat ashore... alleluia!!!

2006-07-21T00:41:00.000+08:00

woohoo... just had my room painted in bright tangerine and faint apricot... the former turned out to be a little less luminating than i thought from what i could discern from the sample pantone thingy from nippon paint... the apricot a tad too pinkish... so i have quite a confused room now... how??? actually i kinda like it. now it is not so boringly sunshine yellow as before...

one good thing that came out of this massive repaint is that i get a chance to do some serious packing for my room and to throw away a lot of old stuff... things that i hoarded over the years and which i should have discarded long time ago...

other than a new room with weird smell to return home to, i spent the night in school for the first lesson of my final semester... today was prof. francis koh delivering his first lecture on corporate finance... he is one of the better pedagogues in SMU and easily one of the nicest gentlemen in town... i actually met him 2 years before in an interesting setting prior to my joining of this post grad course... 2 novembers ago, i had visitors from melbourne, australia... 2 theology students whom i brought to the bar and billard room at the raffles hotel to try out the singapore sling and to play a round of billard. there was prof koh and his family who were there to celebrate his birthday... his son, a young teenage chap was eyeing our billard table as we were playing our rounds... and us, being the friendly ones, offered to let his son play a game with us... being the sociable one, i took the opportunity to strike up a conversation with prof francis koh and in the end, i found out that he is an academic at biz school, SMU and so coincidentally, he is lecturing in the post grad programme that i had planned to take at that point in time... he actually gave me his name card at that time as a contact if i needed more help in the programme... little did he know that i would eventually end up as his student!!! a small world singapore is...

i did not get the opportunity to find out if he remembers meeting me this evening though... come saturday, i shall ask him if he remembers his son being offered a game of billard at the raffles two novembers ago... he is a really good teacher... and i am sure i will miss him once these 5 sessions are up with his module...

2006-07-19T21:39:00.000+08:00

looking "cool" on phi phi island, phang na bay, thailand

sunset view from the infinity edge lap pool at the jw marriott resort

Olympic champion michele low and the rays of the sun and the lovely lap pool of marriott...

self run bath infused with lavender oils, complete with rubber duckie and the aromatherapy jar... to soothe the end of a lovely day in phuket

2006-07-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

i realised that i have not blogged for a WHOLE WEEK... sigh... and i thought I could keep up the good diligent work of sharing my daily improvs...

anyway... i have quite a bad 2 days cause i fell sick... again... i could not stop throwing up since monday morning... where i had to puke when i woke up and then later in the day when i was in the middle of a 4 hour meeting after lunch... and then once more when i returned home before dinner... i thought all was well when i slept early and took some gastric antacids - veregel... but when i woke up on tuesday, i felt drowsy but i pulled myself together to go to work... cause i know my boss will be on PM off today... don't wanna have only one member of my team remaining in the office... in the end... after the most rocky bus journey to the interchange, i had to turn back cause i was almost ready to puke again... so i immediately hailed a taxi home, ran to my toilet bowl and out came stuff... nothing gross... just water i guess cause i have not had anything to eat... ultimately, i pulled myself to go to the doctor's and then again i threw up there... that's round 5 i think... doctor said it was nothing more than a serious bout of gastric flu hence the churning and the throwing up and the belching...

okay... this really freaked me out... not because of what he said... but what my colleague told me on monday about the brother of another colleague... she said he was throwing up for no reason for 3 whole days before finally ended up in SGH... and the medical officers there diagnose a mere gastric problem... in the end the puking did not stop and then went to Raffles Hospital for a second opinion... that was where they found out that he had a gall bladder infection which was serious enough to be operated on...

so this notion that the puking might mean a larger problem really scared me... what if i had more than a serious bout of gastric flu??? and my seemingly unstoppable throwing up sessions seem to not come to an end... even this morning on day 3 i had a little belching and i was feeling drowsy and drugged... in the end i pulled myself to work and asked my boss to let me off in the afternoon so that i could rest... thank God i did that... i'm feeling better now and hopefully i will be at my best tomorrow... missed out on a lot already being away from work for 1.5 days...

tomorrow i am having my room painted... in tones of tangerine and apricot... so it'll be orangey hues... i did not get to choose the colours but i did not violently object so the colours stay... it should turn out well i'd reckon... so i was busy packing my room of stuff and discovered that i have hoarded a lot of rubbish throughout the years... i must seriously do some rethinking about what i should keep and what to throw when the room's done...

oh well... stay tuned for more improvs from sammie... have a lot to fill in about my phuket trip...

2006-07-09T11:41:00.000+08:00

Nirvana...

2006-07-05T02:29:00.000+08:00

quite a day i've had here on my first day in phuket... it's been almost 24 hours since i was last fast asleep... i had a 7:00 AM flight remember? the budget flight was uneventful... almost clinical and textbook. the only thing of worthy mention was the captain on the flight is a lady and she brought the plane down with the gentlest touch expected of a woman... one of the best landings i've ever had... how cool is that?

phuket did seem to change a bit since my last visit here in 1989... that was like 17 years ago??? but some of the landmarks are still around... like the holiday inn patong beach and some of the restaurants along that stretch seem like they pop out of my memory cache... the resort we're staying at, the jw marriott phuket beach club is definitely a luxury... with two bedrooms and two bathrooms, albeit the one that i am sharing with is small with two double (queen-sized) beds that can actually comfortable accommodate two persons in fact. i am going to have a great sleep tonight with a larger than usual bed to snuggle around with... the pool and the resort surroundings are top notch and even though the hotel does seem a bit tired from receiving a lot of guests (there are some no so well maintained portions), it is quite forgivable. food prices are quite steep here... but i think the price is correlated with the quality... one pays for what one gets...

and talking about prices, i made not one, but three business shirts today at patong beach. i kind of randomly selected one tailor amongst many many others and had my body measures for 3 shirts which cost 2,000 baht or approximately 80 singapore dollars... imagine if they turn out perfect on friday when i collect it, it would be a HUGE HUGE bargain compared with when i paid 80 singapore dollars for one that is tailor made in singapore itself... :P

dinner today is very cheap... shall not go into it... but not the grilled seafood stuff that one would usually eat when in phuket... but being so cheap, i am not one to complain...

my only worry is that the transport from the hotel to anywhere on phuket is a huge huge chore... the marriott being far north of the island, near the airport, is extremely far from the action at patong or the other beaches... therefore the taxi-van ride would cost > 1,800 baht which when divided by 5 persons, one would have to fork out about 15 singapore dollars for the two way trip... kind of steep for a place where everything else is so cheap... but then again, one has no complaints whatsoever as the rooms came free thanks to jared's Uncle Joe, whom we must really offer up our thanks and appreciation... we have yet to decide on what to do...

planning for the activities for the next few days prove tricky as there are several factors to consider but eventually, i think we have got it worked out, hopefully perfectly for the enjoyment of all... am looking forward to a day of basically resting and relaxing at the pool / gym et cetera around the resort... we bought a lot of food so that we can cook in the fully equipped kitchen in the apartment... so let's see what will transpire tomorrow...

a long kadenz tonight as the day does not seem to want to end... time flies when you are having fun and the energy level required to sustain it seemes to increase when one is not at work!!!

read on folks... hopefully, i'll still have internet access tomorrow and i'll fill these pages again with more improvs of my trip here in phuket... till then...

2006-07-04T06:03:00.000+08:00

woohoo... i thought i'd could blog the day after my retreat but alas, i was too tired and whacked to write anything last night before i went to bed at almost 1:00 AM...

i only slept about 3 hours before i had to wake up to go to the AIRPORT!!! i am on my way to phuket!!! my long awaited trip and plane ride, albeit on a budget airline... my first ever :P the budget terminal is quite interesting really... spartan but functional, bare but with the essentials... a fully equipped cosmetic and alcohol duty free... complete with the clinique range and also even bottles of dom perignon 1998 which costs 189 only!!! i say only because it would cost almost 300 dollars to get one outside from a wine place... i might get a bottle to celebrate my birthday... depends on my mood and whether i have the dough...

so here's a farewell... i might blog while i am in phuket... depending on whether there's wireless in the hotel... which i think there is... anyway... wish me lots of fun and have a great week ahead folks!!! i tried to ask for an upgrade at checkin... wait a minute... i am only on cattle class!!! :P time to queue up for my free seating... they say must queue up 45 minutes before the flight so that you can get the best seats on the A320... yes... they actually printed FREE SEATING on the boarding pass instead of seat 1A!!!!!!!!!!! wish me good journey...

peace...

2006-06-30T23:57:00.000+08:00

to steal an idea from suzie's blog... fridae fives for this week...

5 places that I want to visit before I die

1. Banyan Tree Ringha (Shangri La), Yunnan, China
http://www.banyantree.com/ringha/index.htm
to basically just enjoy life's decadent pleasures in a place described as heaven on earth... hopefully with someone special... hint hint...

2. Vatican City, Rome, Italy
to marvel at the architecture, art and history of the "HQ" of the Catholic Church... include the city of Rome as well...

3. Antartica
to see the penguins and more penguins...

4. Israel
to visit the holy sites like the place of the cruxificion, nativity etc...

5. Space, the final frontier...
to simply float and fly around in weightless atmosphere...

2006-06-30T23:43:00.000+08:00

woa... how exciting... tomorrow i'll be away for the weekend for my church choir's annual retreat... with all the planning and organising done, i should think it will run itself smoothly, all in God's hands... am looking forward to it as i think it will be a real break from the routine that our choir goes through every weekend in church...

today at work, things seem pretty slow, owing to the failed simulations yesterday... thanks to the tech folks who did not seem to have done a good job... duh... could squeeze in a tea break in the afternoon which is a real luxury and something i do not do often... bade farewell to a nice chap on my floor who's moving onto another team in another floor... he's on a rotation around our various teams in the business (consumer banking group) since he's on our management associate programme... which i admit seems quite attractive for me nowadays... perhaps i might sign up for it next year? who knows right? anyway... i am not thinking too much into my career at this moment... just going to ride on what i am doing till when i feel the time is ripe to do something about it...

had a really interesting dinner this evening... turkish food... and in the middle of simei... who would have thought that there's actually such uncommon cuisine in a hdb heartland... thanks suzie for showing me where the good food are... tried this poached fish thingy which was light and i must say tasty... the sides of potato and salad did not disappoint... did a bit of shopping for the retreat and a spot of dessert and the usual yakking before heading home... all hot and sweaty from walking a distance... but all in all it was with good company... so am not complaining... at least not that much :P

shall not be blogging any cadences tomorrow since i'll be away... unless i happen to be lucky enough to steal bandwidth from some fool who did not secure his wireless network... we shall see...

2006-06-30T00:07:00.000+08:00

a certain someone just sent me mary j blige's "No More Drama" for my listening... and kind of true... i do not need any more drama than necessary in my current life... think i can pretty much handle the level of dramatics that i am being exposed to now... any more, i think i'll be going looney myself....

an extract from the song lyrics:

(No more drama)

I'm tired of all the drama

(No more drama)

Go 'head, go 'head

(No more drama)

Your demons gettin' out of my face

Goin' out my life

(No more drama)

I'm about to lose my mind

Lord help me, help me sing

No more drama

Oh help me sing

I need a piece of mind

A piece of mind, piece of mind

Well, I need

I need to know that you agree

Oh no, oh no

No more, no more, no more drama

No more drama in my, in my life

So tired, I'm so tired

So tired, tired of all this drama

Go ahead with all your drama

thank you, certain someone, for sharing this with me...

2006-06-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

another interesting day at work today... had to run a series of simulations these few days to stress test a release that we're putting into the system that i am managing... let's call it version P016... so i was happily running those tests the past few days to ensure that this release will work before we put it live for our users in the bank... the purpose of these tests are to sieve out any errors in the programming done by our IT software developers... and towards the end, when my and my team mates were confident that there is no problem, we had to meet with a bug... and true enough, the tech folks did not do a good job... and they had to redo the release again... that means we have to BLARDIE run the same set of simulations AGAIN... double work and wasted effort... sigh...

and what more, i am going away next week... SO HOW? go for holiday also no mood... me and colleagues some more wanted to have a lunch at this fine dining restaurant called flutes at the fort which is a beautifully restored colonial house at fort canning and they serve great australian inspired food... www.flutesatthefort.com.sg ... they have an executive lunch set that we've been wanting to try... because of the testing, we postponed it to monday thinking we can enjoy ourselves... looks like we have to rethink whether we still want to go pamper ourselves there...

anyway... am not going to let this fiasco by the techies spoil my holiday... i managed to convince my boss that we have to postpone our implementation after i return cause it is no way i can finish a few days work on monday itself before i fly on tuesday... :P at least my current boss is willing to listen to my sentiments and take into consideration my little weight... thank God for that...

anyway... i am really looking forward to the trip next week... it'll be my first flight since last march. can you imagine? i have been slogging at work and school without a real vacation break... i think i deserve to pamper myself and to enjoy with folks that i like to hang out with...

also i am really into the retreat / camp that my choir is organising this week... a lot of work has been put into it... despite the seemingly last minute work, i think that we have the different expertise and gifts from the various individuals that made the planning and organising and delegating so easy... i feel confident that we have done the best that we could ever have and hopefully we will be rewarded with a successful session this weekend...

so you see... things are going to get kinda exciting for me these coming few day... more dramatic kadenz coming along... so keep your ears and eyes peeled... maybe when i figured out how to upload music files, i can share with you all my favourite kadenz...

perfect cadence to a good day... despite the various drama throughout...

2006-06-28T22:41:00.000+08:00

today was really eventful at work... i had to train a group of trainers how to train other people how to use my system at work... kind of cool you know... to have a bunch of people listening to me and asking all sorts of questions... me, answering them off my head in the midst of the question... sometimes knowing the answer fully... sometimes not knowing anything at all... "improv" myself some of the way... elaborating on my notes at other times... much like a virtuosic cadenza during a solo concerto... (see previous post on definition of cadenza)...

i had my performance today with lots of cadenzas... hopefully my boss will like my show (she was there) and i will get good reviews by the listeners...

was i full of nerves during my training session today? surprisingly no... i am never one who is extremely nervous before an audience... perhaps stemming from my experiences as a performer in my early days... thank God for those cutting edge moments during my concerts... they sure prep me for my work presentations and training sessions...

more improv inspiration hopefully? fill you in on my future work "performances"

right now, i've just completed compiling some biblical readings for my choir's camp this weekend... i just searched through the entire New Jerusalem Bible for chapters on characters who are called to serve God and have taken up his call... thank God for the "control F" function and online bibles... without these 2, i would have to search manually through a hardcopy Bible... that would be a real effort wouldn't it...

busy compiling the taize songs now for the camp... go check out www.taize.fr for those who have no idea what i am talking about... need some inspiration and improv again... woa... some taize songs have nice cadences... interesting...

2006-06-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

a new blog is born every second in cyber realm on planet earth, so says the local paper a few days ago... i thought i'd add on to this statistic by creating my own virtual page of musings... the first movement that you're reading now is a prelude... a little musical introduction to really pave the way to a more elaborate and dramatic composition that is my life...

actually the real impetus to actually set about signing up for a blog space was quite incidental... a good friend of mine, a certain suzie wong... he (yes, i used the correct pronoun, not a typo) actually has a blog page in which he appealed for any body to recall for him the title of the film that he saw a while ago in which he cried buckets blah blah blah... that movie had meryl streep and william hurt in it... but anyway... me, being the person whose craving for delusional grandeur got the better of him and me who had the insane urge to broadcast to the world wide web that he has an extensive knowledge of the movies, decided well, to post the answer as a comment on suzie's blog entry... but as it goes, i am not allowed to post a comment with my name on it (need that for recognition) without signing up for a blogspot account myself... so here i am, a full fledged member of cyber crapping and all the responsibilities attached, just because i want to let all know that i do know what movie suzie cried about and wanted so badly to star in it...

then it happened, before i knew it, i must select a name for my blog... how to think that profoundly for a name that is not only unique but also needs to personify all that is my being and life??? in a short space of a few seconds before i had to click the "ok" button? i closed my eyes and thought for a few nano seconds... and the word cadence came to mind...

why cadence??? for the benefit of the unfamiliar, pardon the pompousness, a cadence is an important musical concept:

ca·dence (kād'ns) n., pl. -denc·es.
1. Balanced, rhythmic flow, as of poetry or oratory.
2. The measure or beat of movement, as in dancing or marching.
3. A falling inflection of the voice, as at the end of a sentence. General inflection or modulation of the voice.
4. Music. A progression of chords moving to a harmonic close, point of rest, or sense of resolution.

a more elaborate description:

cadence, in music, the ending of a phrase or composition. In singing the voice may be raised or lowered, or the singer may execute elaborate variations within the key. In instrumental music, with development of the theory of harmony, the cadence became completely dependent on the change of chord. If the dominant chord comes before the tonic, the cadence is authentic, or perfect; if the subdominant chord comes before the tonic, the cadence is plagal. If the dominant chord leads into another harmony, the cadence is called deceptive, or interrupted. The reverse order of tonic to dominant is a half cadence, or imperfect.

how apt then to name my blog cadence or the german equivalent kadenz, since it is mostly german composers that i am fond of... i can then treat every blog entry like a true kadenz, an end to a day of my life in which the nanoseconds are like different measures of a long and difficult symphonic work (that parallels my life) that i compose along the way... how i choose to end my day, whether it is perfect or interrupted or imperfect... how i choose to structure my chords and make decisions in the course of a day to arrive at a coda at the end of each movement... that will all be recorded down in this webspace much as a composer ends his movement with a kadenz...

interestingly, another derivative of the word cadence is cadenza (italian) or kadenz (german), another important music concept, which is in essence:

ca·den·za (kə-dĕn'zə) n.
1. An elaborate, ornamental melodic flourish interpolated into an aria or other vocal piece.
2. An extended virtuosic section for the soloist usually near the end of a movement of a concerto.
[Italian, from Old Italian, cadence. See cadence.]

from wikipedia:

A cadenza is usually now taken to mean a portion of a concerto in which the orchestra stops playing, leaving the soloist to play alone in free time (without a strict, regular pulse) and can be written or improvised, depending on what the composer specifies. This normally occurs near the end of a movement, though it can be at any point in a concerto; an example is Tchaikovsky's First Piano Concerto, where in the first five minutes a cadenza is used. It usually is the most elaborate part that the solo instrument plays during the whole piece. At the end of the cadenza, the orchestra re-enters, and generally finishes off the movement on their own, or less often with the solo instrument.

The cadenza was originally a vocal flourish improvised by a performer to elaborate a cadence in an aria. It was later used in instrumental music, and soon became a standard part of the concerto. Originally, it was improvised in this context as well, but during the 19th century, composers began to write cadenzas out in full. Third parties also wrote cadenzas for works in which it was intended by the composer to be improvised, so the soloist could have a well formed solo that they could practice in advance. Some of these have become so widely played that they are effectively part of the standard repertoire, as is the case with Joseph Joachim's cadenza for Johannes Brahms' Violin Concerto and Beethoven's set of cadenzas for Mozart's Piano Concerto no. 20. Concertos are not the only pieces that feature cadenzas; Scena di Canta Gitano, the fourth movement of Nikolai Rimsky-Korsakov's Capriccio espagnol, contains cadenzas for violin, harp, clarinet, and flute in its beginning section.

Nowadays, very few performers improvise their cadenzas, and very few composers have written concertos within the last hundred years that include the possibility of an improvised cadenza. A famous example of a cadenza is Rachmaninov's Third Piano Concerto, in which the first movement features a long and difficult cadenza. Another famous cadenza appears at the end of the first movement of Grieg's Piano Concerto in A minor. It is a long and impassioned cadenza which ends with the orchestra and piano playing together in a dramatic and rousing finale.

Cadenzas are also found in instrumental solos with piano or other accompaniment, where they are placed near the beginning or near the end or sometimes in both places. (e.g. "The Maid of the Mist," cornet solo by Herbert L. Clarke, or a more modern example: the end of "Think of Me" where Christine Daaè sings a short but involved cadenza, in Andrew Lloyd Webber's The Phantom of the Opera.)

there is a cadenza in every movement (day) in my life, metaphorically speaking... i crave the excitement of improvisation and making spontaneous decisions to venture into the unknown and to make my mark, stamp my impressions on people as i trudge along with each kadenz that i conjure up in at the spur of the moment

can i then capture all these moments much like the kadenz of the greatest classical works in the confines of this blog space? stay tuned to find out and listen... albeit metaphorically...